When something happens that I don’t like, my first instinct or reaction is to be angry. Like as soon as I read the thing, or do whatever it was, and I don’t like it, I’ll most likely get mad about it. Mad as in I just start thinking about it over and over and have the desire to just hit things. For some reason that’s my gut reaction. Why? Why am I so fucked up like this? It really does bother me.

I hate how my reaction to things like that are either anger or sadness, or one then the other.
I just hope this whole college thing will change and mold me into something I want to be.

 

I’d really enjoy not hating what I see in the mirror everyday or constantly putting myself down or hating myself.

Hopefully such a dream is attainable..